As I read my bible, through God’s promise in Isaiah 41:10-15 and Psalm 37, He constantly reminded me that He Himself will help me. And He will help you!
“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. “All who rage against you will surely be ashamed and disgraced; those who oppose you will be as nothing and perish. Though you search for your enemies, you will not find them. Those who wage war against you will be as nothing at all. For I am the Lord your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you. Do not be afraid, you worm Jacob, little Israel, do not fear, for I myself will help you,” declares the Lord, your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel. “See, I will make you into a threshing sledge, new and sharp, with many teeth. You will thresh the mountains and crush them, and reduce the hills to chaff.”
Isaiah 41:10-15 NIV
Isn’t it a humbling experience that the sovereign God gives us that assurance?
Who am I? I am a sinner whom He raised me up from the pit.
As I lay down and surrender everything to God, I have come to realize that God does not want me to focus on what is wrong with my husband. God revealed to me that I myself am a sinner but the good news is that God has already redeemed me from that. I realised that I used to be a controlling wife which I was not aware of. I controlled my husband with my selfishness and pride. I am not saying that husband doesn’t have issues as well but God assures me that that He will take care of him. As for me now God told me to focus on Him and to obey Him. Husband is now under God’s control.
I have come to realise that my husband is not really a believer. If God performed miracles in my life as He made me experience “no longer I who lives but Christ lives in me,” who am I to condemn my prodigal husband and judge him of his action.
Right now, I know I have no one to turn to but God! He is my hope, my living God! And I know that there is power in the name of Jesus! Truly, God is my Shepherd!
Psalm 37 gives me strength. There are times when I feel so alone, distressed, and resentful I always look up this verse. It gives me assurance that the Lord Himself is with me. Truly, He is the living God! Sovereign God! Dagdag pa ang Psalm 27.
Super nkkabless na ramdam mo sa puso mo that the Lord God is my shield! Genesis 15:1 Do not be afraid! I am your shield, your greatest reward. I always rebuke Satan when he lures me with the idea that my husband is happy now, he won’t be coming back, he doesn’t need me. I fight satan with God promises. Basta as for me, I am living by faith and not by sight. Holding on to God’s promise. Heaven and earth will pass away but His words will remain (Matt 24:35).