On our 13th year of marriage while I had been grieving about my parent’s serious health blow, I discovered my husband’s relationship with a common friend. I was in a very “dark place.” Out of grief, depression, anger, and rage, I decided to confront the OW at her office. In front of her, my husband admitted the adulterous relationship, while she vehemently denied it.
My husband and I went back together and I thought the relationship stopped… until I discovered a year and a half ago that they were still communicating with each other. That started our endless bickering fights every day and night.
I suffered physical and emotional abuse from my husband.
Four months ago, I came across a news article that the OW was being charged with graft and corruption. The following month, my husband went abroad and came back two weeks after and was rushed to the hospital due to his kidney problem. He got so mad at me and told me “So you and your God are happy now with what happened to me?”
I thought it was already a wake-up call for him to go back to the Heavenly Father, but it only made him resent me and God even more.
Was I happy about how those events unfolding right before my eyes? Yes, but that was before I met Sis Malu Ortiz of Praying W.I.F.E. forum. I know all of us cannot escape the consequences of our sins. I pray that my husband and the OW will experience “brokenness” that will lead them back to God. And may I also use my brokenness to continue with this intimate relationship with God.
A friend of mine said “When we are wrong, God punishes us. When we are WRONGED, God vindicates us”. “What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?”
Romans 8:31 NIV
I say this bible verse whenever my husband hurts me to the core, “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” Psalms 34:18 NIV
I will not say that my husband is my T.O.T.G.A. :
The One That Got Away but
The One That God Assigned for me.
So I will stand in the “G.A.P.P.” – God’s Anointed Position in Prayer! I will take this chance and opportunity to be Christ’s bride first and my husband’s second.
I will put God first before anything or anyone else. “Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and he will establish your plans.”
Proverbs 16:3 NIV
I used to be very bitter. Whenever I get hurt because of my husband’s choices or actions, I would call my friends, and we would be so angry at my husband and the OW. One time we even went to the point of having a CURSING party!
I also joined “HELLpful” forums such as Cheaters Go To Hell, Narcissistic Abuse, Narcissists Can’t Change, Emotional Abusers, etc. etc. Those made me even angrier and more bitter.
Now, I know better. No more cursing. No more shaming. No more. I am still a work-in-progress and I thank God for Praying Wife Forum that it constantly reminds me not to go back to that dark place! I dont want to ever side with the enemy and contribute to his evil plans and schemes.
I will make sure I deserve to be Christ’s bride. And please help me to be one all the time. Please help me, sisters 😘🥰😍🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼 With God’s grace and in Jesus’s name, Amen!
