Dearest Husband,
I am tired-physically, emotionally, and mentally even financially.
Ang daming dahilan para murahin kita, sumbatan, awayin pero hindi ko magawa
because more than my desire to retaliate and pay evil with evil,
I desire more to do HIS will and to obey what HE commands
and that is to CHOOSE to forgive, love and bless despite the rejections, abandonment
and ill-treatment that I receive from you. I still choose to smile because I know
that at the end of the day, the Lord is smiling at me. Mas mahal ko Sya
kesa masunod kung ano talaga ang gustong isigaw ng puso ko at yan ang maghiganti.
If I really love HIM, then I should follow HIM, if I really am HIS sheep,
then I should listen to HIS voice.
Tuwing napapagod ako at naiiyak, I still choose to smile at iiyak at isumbong lahat
sa Lord at pagkatapos nito, ok na ulit ako kasi binigyan na naman Nya ako
ng panibagong lakas para magpatuloy…magpatuloy magmahal, magpatuloy
umunawa at magpatuloy mag patawad.
Kung ako lang ang masusunod hindi ko ito gusto pero ito ang gusto Nya gawin ko
kaya ito ang gagawin ko dahil mahal ko Sya. Pagod na ang puso ko
pero tuwing naaalala ko ang ginawa Nya para sa akin na hindi Nya ako isinuko,
iyan ang nagbibigay lakas sa akin na lumaban muli dahil hindi lamang laban ko ito
kung hindi laban namin ito.
I am tired to be married but HE always reminds me, “Anak, hindi lang ikaw at sya
ang nasa marriage na ito. Kasama Ako.” At bigla ako mahihiya at sasabihin,
“Sige Lord, kung ikaw nga hindi mag gigive up sino ako para bumitiw.”
This is not about me winning my husband for myself anymore but this is winning his soul for You.
Lalaban tayo, Lord ..If You are for me then who can be against me;
if You are for this marriage and are in this marriage, then who can be against it…No one!
Broken and Hurting But Gracefully Enduring Wife,
Anonymous
